Reminiscent.

17 09 2009

Doing the yearly spring cleaning of my drawers and cupboards today. I came across a whole pile of old photos I stashed away because they were not relevant to what I was doing. Went through every single one. You know what they were?

Pictures from my secondary school days.

It was then that I realized that these are photos that are over or close to a decade old. FADZLI 10 years ago. When I look at me 10 years ago.. WOW. So much difference. Listed them down below:

  • I was a lot more tanned then. Now I understood why a few of my friends called me the unorthodox Tamil Tiger.
  • There was COMPLETELY no sign of my now-obvious tummy.
  • Back then, I didn’t have a hairSTYLE. It was just hair.
  • I had photos from Sec 1 to Sec 5. Each year, I adopted a new hairstyle. Yearly epic fail.
  • I was really short.

And then there was the photos of my other schoolmates.. whether it was at camps, pre-JT Jammers performances (OMG THIS I GOTTA SCAN AND TAG IN FB!), school gatherings, random shots taken by friends.. please take note, this was over a year ago, when digital cameras were like the iPhone among cameras that time. EVERYTHING was on film. The horror.

I realized that I’ve grown a lot since then. I mean, I do wish that I could go back and relive those memories.. it was fun being a 14-year-old without a care in the world. Right now, I’m 24 with plenty of concerns, just your typical young adult Singaporean. I think I’ve aged well. I’ve got my targets, and they’re all within range.. I’ve no worries at the moment! and I like that feeling.

I hope that if ever my younger friends come upon / stumble / stalk my blog and read this entry.. flood your computers with photos of who and what you are now. Keep them. When you grow older, you’ll realize that the photos will help you achieve what most adults fail to do, and yearn to do it.

Feel young again.





Update.

17 09 2009

I haven’t blogged for a long time have I? Even Stephanie’s complaning. lols. Its just that, a lot of things happened, and I just don’t feel like blogging it yet. No inspiration. Right now, the mood seems right, so here I go..

Team trip to East Coast! I haven’t been there for a very very long time. it has changed so much! Had a whole bunch of us around. I just realized how serene Bedok Jetty can be in the evening. While the rest of them were encamped at Mcdonalds, I decided to cycle to the jetty to sit down. Its the first time I felt peace in a long long time.

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To my left.

To my right.

To my right.

What's behind me...

What's behind me...

All around... serenity.

All around... serenity.

After so long, I cycled like a nutcase back and forth. You don’t really appreciate distance till you try cycling down East Coast Park. Brought me back to the old days, a decade ago, where I would cycle like said nutcase up and down West Coast.. whether it was to Ginza Plaza, or to Pandan Reservoir or even to West Coast Park. I’ve AGED.

One drawback about the area, its near to Changi airport, so the sounds of the planes flying in and out of one of the world’s busiest airports can be a tad bit distracting. I counted 22 planes flying in and out throughout the whole time I was there. And to think that, I’ve been telling a lot of people who have been asking, that I haven’t been on a plane before. I AM SERIOUS. Never had. I have been on foot since the dawn of my birth.

Speaking of foot. Ryan bought his new entry-level DSLR, and was so excited to try it. He had access to the car, so the first stop we went to was Bukit Timah Nature Reserve. We basically walked around the Reserve trying to explore whatever that could be explored, which was plenty actually. I haven’t been to the Reserve for a long time, so I was quite surprised to “discover” that there was a lot of things I missed out!

Random dead leaf on the boardwalk.

Random dead leaf on the boardwalk.

Mini autumn?

Mini autumn?

Hindhede Quarry. Looks a bit like Ubin scenery eh? There was 3 other quarries Ryan and myself couldn't cover. Can't wait to return back there again.

Hindhede Quarry. Looks a bit like Ubin scenery eh? There was 3 other quarries Ryan and myself couldn't cover. Can't wait to return back there again.

Ryan... being Ryan. =P

Ryan... being Ryan. =P

Random wood block corner close up.

Random wood block corner close up.

Saw this twisted tree when we entered one of the nature trails. Amazing eh?

Saw this twisted tree when we entered one of the nature trails. Amazing eh?

Close up of said tree.

Close up of said tree.

Fallen tree split apart by Nature. Notice the blue spherical seeds inside the cracks. Safe to say, the tree had blue balls. LOLS!

Fallen tree split apart by Nature. Notice the blue spherical seeds inside the cracks. Safe to say, the tree had blue balls. LOLS!

Ryan shocked this fella. Almost stepped on his tail. We spent 5 minutes just looking at this guy, who was content digging a hole by a tree.

Ryan shocked this fella. Almost stepped on his tail. We spent 5 minutes just looking at this guy, who was content digging a hole by a tree.

Den after about an hour, we got exhausted and decided to head back to the car. It was loooong downhill walk, but it was made worthwhile because we saw an old friend on the way down!

WEI ZHONG! HAHAHAHAHA! kidding kidding! =X

WEI ZHONG! HAHAHAHAHA! kidding kidding! =X

There was a troop of monkeys happily sitting by the side of the path like nobody’s business. I counted 15 healthy troop members. I don’t know which species they really are, but its really heartening to know there’s a healthy population of primates still active in one of Singapore’s nature reserves.

After a few minutes of debating inside the car, we decided to head to Sungei Buloh Nature Reserve, the premier mangrove reserve on the mainland. The other of course, being Chek Jawa, which I haven’t stepped foot on before.

The Reserve was absolutely fantastic in the late afternoon, other than the murderous mosquitoes, it was perfect day for a stroll. Next 3 photos were taken on top of the Aviary watch tower.

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Mangrove scenery all around.

Mangrove scenery all around.

This non-epic picture of a flower is THE reason why I wanna get a freakin prime lens.

This non-epic picture of a flower is THE reason why I wanna get a freakin prime lens.

Nice right? Walked around a hell lot. I’m looking for a good place, other than my FB, to upload all of the shots. I know deviantart is good, but that’s being used for the cosplay shoots I do. I’ll see how.

It was on the way back to the Visitors Centre did something really epic fail happened to me.

We just about reached the Centre and were preparing to exit, but Ryan said he needed to go to the toilet. So I told him to go ahead while I waited outside. I was standing on the typical wooden boardwalk, bordered by greenery to both my left and right.

I spied a sign on one of the walls, stating to BE CAREFUL OF CROCODILES. Yes, there are mangrove crocodiles hanging around if they’re not busy being buayas or dissing Croc shoes. Suddenly, I head scratching sounds below me, where my left foot was. When I looked down.. lo and behold..

No.. I didn't see this dude. But I sure wish I did!

No.. I didn't see this dude. But I sure wish I did!

Staring back at me, was a 1.5m long water monitor lizard. *cue horror scene music*

Safe to say, after reading that crocodile warning and seeing a reptilian head near my feet, I did my best impression of Usain Bolt and ran. The lizard too, jumped and ran. Ryan peeked his head outside, and asked whats wrong. I told him everything. H e didn’t laugh, because he knew what we were looking at.

It really resembles a Komodo Dragon. Not Kodomo baby talcum powder.

It really resembles a Komodo Dragon. Not Kodomo baby talcum powder.

"kua simi kua?"

"kua simi kua?"

Very National Geographic eh? LOLS!

Very National Geographic eh? LOLS!

Just looking at it already gives me the creeps. URGH. Anyway, we spied a few of the water monitors on the way back, and snapped away. It was pretty much my closest encounter of the reptilian kind.

"I see you... do you see me?"

"I see you... do you see me?"





Reality.

13 08 2009

There. The post did what it was supposed to do. Truthfully speaking, I didn’t like the situation any more than you do. How was I supposed to tell you how we felt, without you incurring some other form of emotional injury? What you wrote in the team thread, was basically what I thought was appropriate, albeit weeks before. You can tell it has a profound effect on the team, because after Oreo’s and Lorenzo’s reply, we basically fell silent. It was that kind of uncomfortable scenario you know? Let you know and we’ll be damned. Don’t let you, and we’ll also be damned. Yes, I do see you as my younger sister, as I see the rest of the female team members. I didn’t know any other way to put it. You can think that you want to stay away from the team, or minimise interactions with us. I don’t really know about that, but I do know is, I smiled and had fun with you weeks after the incident happened. I don’t keep bad feelings inside of me. I seriously hope, you took away something from the incident, as I have done myself.





Responsibility.

17 07 2009

I’m back. But only because there is something I need to get off my chest. Even though it has been like what, 5 days? Its been seething in my head from that event until now. I know you’ll be reading this, but I just do not know any other way to let you know without offending you or your friends.

The first time I entered the team thread, I was amazed and happy to see everyone was so clickable with each other. No arguments, no conflicts, no friction. Eventually, as all cliques do, disagreements would occur, but it’d be solved in a jiffy. No problems there. But what happened on Cosfest Day 2, was just simply unforgiveable to me. To be honest, I thought the 2 of you should have known better.

There we were at BK White Sands rushing through our costumes, wigs and make-up. I think this is the point whereby I need to remind you that you volunteered to do the make up for the team. OUR team. But in the end, you ended up late. Frankly speaking, we were prepared. I’ve always told Oreo that whenever we do an event, we MUST consider the worst case scenario, and then act appropriately. Anything else that happens wouldn’t be THAT bad, and from there we could play it by ear. So we were quite prepared when we found out that your friend left your make-up materials at D’Marquee. OK la. We swallowed our rising tension, and then luckily, Mag, Mayo, Xuri was already on hand to help out with make up. I hope you remember that they are our back up. Not the MAIN make up artiste.

Oreo and I had planned it in such a way, with all the bad scenario’s planted in, that we’d all arrive, ready and good to cosplay, by 1:00pm sharp. Then suddenly, a call came in, saying that you won’t be stepping into Downtown East without your costume and make up on. Okay.. we factored that in. Got on with the plan. Still on track.

The group had to split up after that, because we had to deposit our bags at Mag’s place, whereas the rest went to D’Marquee to get the costumes, wigs and make up done. We figured that you were going to reach soon, and that everything would be fine and dandy. Right after we reached Mag’s place, took a short break, we received news that your best friend and yourself, would be DOING YOUR OWN MAKE UP AND COSTUME AT YOUR FRIEND’S HOUSE BEFORE HEADING DOWN. We were also told that you’d reached by 2:00pm. I would also like to mention that when I called to get things clarified, I was SHOUTED AT OVER THE PHONE, SAYING THAT RECEIVING CALLS FROM US WAS IRRITATING. Yes. IRRITATING. As much as I would have loved to FLICK OFF THE PERSON WHO ANSWERED MY PHONE CALL THERE AND THEN, I was a guest in someone’s house. So I put the phone down.

In my heart, all I could tell myself is; WE HAVE BEEN FUCKED.

True to my word, Oreo and I rushed down to D’Marquee to witness the all-around chaos that was ensuing. Make-up was barely done. Wigs was not styled properly. Basically, the shit had hit the fan. Oreo had a competition to go to, and his make up was more or less, unsatisfactory for competition purposes. But I don’t blame the stand in make-up artistes. They DID THEIR BEST. We got on with it. The Gundam Seed Destiny Team was pretty much fucked too, because of their incomplete make up and costumes. But I don’t blame the girls in their team for that. Because they actually volunteered to help TEAM CODE GEASS with their make-up. Yes. YOUR TEAM. In a way, they put our team first before their own.

So while Oreo went on the compete feeling disappointed, I tried to run things. TRIED. Wigs and make-up. Definitely not Fadzli’s area of specialty. BEST part was, that’s when you came. at 3:00pm. FANTASTIC. Not only did you fuck us up over the make-up. You also FUCKED OUR WORST CASE SCENARIO.

Fast forward to that same night, where your friend actually OFFERED HIS APOLOGY to us for screwing up our make-up arrangements. But do you know something? I don’t blame him AT ALL. Circumstances fucked with him. There was nothing the poor guy could do.

My only question is;

Why did you have to stay in your friend’s place to do YOUR own make-up and leave YOUR TEAM, the ones you PROMISED TO DO THEIR MAKE UP, in the lurch, only to turn up fucking HOURS LATER?

You screwed up arrangements for Team CG, and Team GSD. I am not going into details on how I felt when I was shouted at. I think you would know that if people are drastically calling for you, its because they need your help. But.. we were FUCKED weren’t we?

In your defense, you were sick. Okay. But I don’t see that as being any reason to come down late, or in this case, NOT FUCKING APPEARING to help your team with the make-up.

Oh. And to top it all off. Not even an apology from you. but from your friend yes. In our team thread nonetheless.

I have a very high opinion of you. But after your display on Sunday, there’s a lot of things I have to reconsider. I just hope the photoshoot doesn’t get fucked too.

Sit down and think about it please. Its not everyday I blow up like this, and if I do, its because of something, someone, or some TEAM, that I hold very close to my heart.





Move.

17 06 2009

Cristiano Ronaldo is probably making the WORST decisions in his career right now.

First. He’s moving to Real Madrid. REAL MADRID! The White Storm. Where the fans can just suddenly turn against you for just ONE bad performance. Forget about the 20 goals in the past 16 games.. bla bla bla. Look at Michael Owen. People forget he WAS from Real Madrid, where he did PRETTY WELL coming from the bench. Let’s see whether Ronaldo can perform as well as he did at Manchester United.

This is the one that really shocked the hell out of me. Cristiano Ronaldo is dating. Not just any supermodel mind you. He’s dating PARIS HILTON. YES. The figure that made sex tapes trendy all around the world. Check out the news here. Seriously I tell you. Even Cristiano’s mum is not agreeable with her. She thinks they can be the new Becks and Posh. Pui. Scary. I wouldn’t want to imagine the strains of STDs she might carry in her.

okay, moving on from disgusting news. I finally decided on the 2 places I wanna visit, or retire to, before I die.

New Zealand and South Korea.

New Zealand, you guys probably knew it already. I simply ADORE New Zealand. Just look at the Lord of Rings trilogy, was was shot in NZ. The scenery is FANTASTIC! Who wouldn’t want to wake up to this scenery every morning?

My room window view.

My room window view.

View from the other window.

View from the other window.

Hell yeah. Throw in the sheep too. Hari Raya Haji sacrifice.. MUTTON….

OK I bet the 2nd choice shocked you guys… a bit.

Other than my undying love for Korean female artistes Sun Ye WG, Yoona SNSD, Yoon Eun Hye, Goo Hye Sun, Son Dambi, Lee Hyori and Bae Seul Ki, I love the culture, the people and.. the countryside.

Don’t believe me? Check out this show called Family Outing. The show’s premise is simple. A group of celebrities (6 permanent cast with 1 guest) are sent out to the Korean countryside to help out a family with their household/daily stuff while that said family goes for a vacation. Besides the ensuing chaos and hilarity, the cut scenes showing the natural beauty of South Korea’s countryside is simply breath-taking. Check it out if you like to watch something really unique and laugh-all-the-time kinda fun. Follow this link here. Brings you straight to Youtube. The channel has english subtitles!

My fever has subsided. Thank goodness. I hope my appetite returns as well.





Thrills.

14 06 2009

Yesterday was probably the most spastic funniest day I’ve ever had with the team. lols.

We went to Scape opposite Cine for the StreetFest, basically an event for cosplayers all over Singapore. Saw a few familiar faces, plenty of characters, a lot of disgusting things as well. Shall not elaborate. lols. I refused to bring my camera yesterday, because it was just as I expected, a lot of photogs, but less cosplayers. Which means, this hypothetical scenario keeps repeating over and over again.

Me: Hi, can I take a picture of you?
Cosplayer: SURE!
*poses*

And suddenly, your prime spot to adjust your body to get the perfect frame and angle is suddenly assailed by photographers armed with all manners of zoom lenses, flash and other camera paraphernalia which I don’t even know their names. In short, they were like a bunch of pirahnas.

"EH QUICK! That one posing liao!"

"EH QUICK! That one posing liao!"

Then there were some of them who actually went there to just.. gawk. Not to look and enjoy the atmosphere of people who enjoy cosplaying, but to ogle and make crude remarks. I don’t even know what to say about these guys.

Anyway, after the whole thing was over, we went over to that new, funky shopping centre opposite Centrepoint. And yes, I forgot the name and I am lazy to freakin Google it. Anyway, the place has this cool escalator running from the 4th floor to 7th floor on the freakin EXTERIOR of the building. So we went up, acting like a bunch of really noob tourists. LOLS. At the top, we got ready the cake we prepared for Bryan, coz it was his birthday! After plenty of laughter, comments, insults and jokes.. we took the lift down to the 4th floor.. to go up the escalator again. LOLS!

YES spastic I know. But its a cheap thrill! Once back on the 7th floor, we spied a really tall circular makan place at the top of Meritus Mandarin, and we decided to go over, JUST to see what it was.

38 floors and a embarassing moment later, we found out it was a lounge bar call Chatterbox. lols. So we went back down and called it a night. Some of us went to Cine for a drink, and that’s that for Saturday.

This morning, woke up to a fever. Yay. And as I type this entry down, my nose is dripping like a water tap. Hai.

CURSE YOU FICKLE WEATHER!!





Naturally Rebellious.

11 06 2009

You know sometimes how your ear has this ringing sound whenever you stand too close to something loud, or, you stand right beside a bass booster stereo in a club? Well, I did the latter stunt yesterday at Rebel, and now my ears feels like Qifa Primary’s school bell ring. Its like perpetually recess time, all the time.

But I understand now why Samantha loves Rebel so much. Damn happening. I had to leave early though, and Marcus said the music got better later on at night. Was there with old primary matey Kuan Sian and his JC friends, Fiona and Jennifer. lols. The music was good, the atmosphere was good.. Rebel next Wednesday anyone? lols.

This morning, I had a very interesting conversation with a close friend of mine. She was relating to me her relationship problem, pertaining to communication. The problem was, the guy didn’t contact her enough. The worst case was when they actually went several days without talking to one another for like even 10 minutes, and with periodic SMSes (and when I say periodic, its more like 5 – 6… per day). The thing is, she’s feeling insecure about the whole situation, She doesn’t know what to do.

So I told her what most people would think makes the most sense. Tell the fella. See how he reassures you. And she pretty much said what I expected the reply would be; “Reassuring the girlfriend also need people to tell him?”

Okay, the thing is, all guys can be jerks, and they can be utterly chivalrous gentlemen. I admit, I can be a jerk sometimes, and then I have my good moments as well. How you define a guy that is good for life, is the number of jerk moments they have against the number of gentlemanly moments I suppose. Here is another fact: Guys are, surprisingly, humans too.

Which means, we have our bad moments on a regular basis. Ok let me take the abovementioned situation for example. Yes, I do admit that we guys have to be proactive in reassuring our partners that things will be fine. But the thing is, once that is done, and things are settled, the girl suddenly decides that the guy now is on autopilot mode, and would know know when and how to reassure her. That’s big mistake No. 1.

Remember I mentioned earlier that we guys are humans? Well, that’s because sometimes we need that occasional reminder too.. Just like how I know some of you love to hear sweet nothings from each other, this communication thing is an on-going tool too. We’re not psychics, so we definitely can’t read your minds. Not all guys are the same.. and some of us needs a reminder once in a while, in the form of a casual chat, or serious talk, or even an SMS or love letter. The thing is, we NEED YOU TO LET US KNOW. Eventually, we WILL go on autopilot, and you won’t need to remind us guys so often.

I got a feeling I know where this “my-boyfriend-must-and-should-know-when-to-reassure-me” concept is from. THIS DUDE:

No. 1 on a girl's wishlist.

No. 1 on a girl's wishlist.

If you’ve read the Twilight series (and I have, and I own all 4 books. Epic fact.), you’d know that this guy could practically communicate to Bella and reassure her, make her happy and all the like. BUT, unlike us, he’s a 100 year old vampire who decides to turn vegan with this uber good looking doctor and his family of vampires. See where I’m coming from? And I bet, the same concept can be found in countless other romantic dramas, movies, Korean and Japanese drama serials.

FACT: Those are all scripted. Whereas your relationships are not.

Knowing all these things, being on autopilot, being able to rush out and meet her at any point of the day.. bla bla bla.. kinda makes Edward like a robot doesn’t it?

Future Edward Cullen.

Future Edward Cullen.

Anyway, to continue with the story, I told my friend whatever I said above. and she said “OK, I go tell him for the 500th time”.

Besides implying that she actually counts the number of times she has spoken to him (which is waaaay into OCD), she’s saying that she’s been telling him A LOT of times about the situation, and he just ain’t doing anything about it. If that happens to you, then my female friends, all of you should do this:

Eunuch in the making.

Eunuch in the making.

Minus the horrifying look of wrath and anger of course. Not sexy. The look on the guy’s face is just.. fantastic.

What do you think? Not about the eunuch, about what I mentioned earlier. Makes sense? Fair?

Just try the communication thing. It’ll do wonders.